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Forgiveness?

What makes you think you're worthy?

You think just a few kind words will fix everything?

That everything shall be forgotten because you wish?

It doesn't work like that.

But I'll smile and say everything's okay,

when really the memories never fade

and truly never forgive you for what happened.

You don't deserve my forgiveness

and to think that you not only do, but are entitled to it,

shows just what kind of person you are.

No, I will never forgive you,

so while I smile and pretend to tolerate you,

don't let your guard down for a second.

I'm just waiting, waiting for that perfect moment

when I can hurt you,

as much as you hurt me.

Forgiveness?

You're not worthy of my forgiveness.
So today, a person that has caused me so much pain, who has the audacity to ask me to help him, when he has told me on several occasions to kill my self and what a whore or slut I was, asked me for forgiveness.

All I could think of was the pain he had caused me when he asked me that. How my depression and suicidal thoughts began with him telling me to, and how the first time I ever hurt myself, it was because of him.

I lied through my teeth as I told him everything was okay and that I forgave him. Then he asked me out on a date, and I have never been happier that I had a boyfriend before. He scares me so much, and the only reason that I ever texted him was because he said he would kill himself if I didn't. I knew it was an empty threat, but I couldn't let the risk of something like that on my conscious.


I shouldn't be spilling this all out on deviantart, where everyone can see and probably tell me what I did wrong, but I didn't feel like I could post this poem without the entire story behind it as well. What was originally just a few lines, turned into a complete rant.

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:iconanimeroxxx:
Honestly, I understood this fully. I also have a person who hurt me sooo bad and asked for me to "forgive" him. I just smiled and said, "Sure" knowing that he's easy to read and he just wants forgiveness so he can hurt me again. Or because he feels pitty for me. But I just smile and when I walk away I frown and think of how "sweet" I could be just so I could hurt him as much, if not more, than he hurt me. This poem made me think of how people could be so mean, then ask for "forgiveness" the memories truly never disappear, fade maybe, but never disappear.
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Cottonee7 Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2013
This is how a certain someone feels about me.
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:iconoilux:
Oilux Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2013  Student Writer
Kind of sucks huh?
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:iconcottonee7:
Cottonee7 Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2013
Yeah.
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BlackDragonof1989 Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012
Nevermind
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:iconoilux:
Oilux Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012  Student Writer
Well alrighty then
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BlackDragonof1989 Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012
Sorry it was my misunderstanding of my friend :icondragoninsane:
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:iconoilux:
Oilux Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012  Student Writer
Lol that's great to hear!
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BlackDragonof1989 Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012
Hey thanks ^^
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BlackDragonof1989 Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2012
I feel like this is how someone feels about me
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:iconoilux:
Oilux Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012  Student Writer
I think that we all have that one person that feels that way about us.
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