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Forgiveness?

What makes you think you're worthy?

You think just a few kind words will fix everything?

That everything shall be forgotten because you wish?

It doesn't work like that.

But I'll smile and say everything's okay,

when really the memories never fade

and truly never forgive you for what happened.

You don't deserve my forgiveness

and to think that you not only do, but are entitled to it,

shows just what kind of person you are.

No, I will never forgive you,

so while I smile and pretend to tolerate you,

don't let your guard down for a second.

I'm just waiting, waiting for that perfect moment

when I can hurt you,

as much as you hurt me.

Forgiveness?

You're not worthy of my forgiveness.
So today, a person that has caused me so much pain, who has the audacity to ask me to help him, when he has told me on several occasions to kill my self and what a whore or slut I was, asked me for forgiveness.

All I could think of was the pain he had caused me when he asked me that. How my depression and suicidal thoughts began with him telling me to, and how the first time I ever hurt myself, it was because of him.

I lied through my teeth as I told him everything was okay and that I forgave him. Then he asked me out on a date, and I have never been happier that I had a boyfriend before. He scares me so much, and the only reason that I ever texted him was because he said he would kill himself if I didn't. I knew it was an empty threat, but I couldn't let the risk of something like that on my conscious.


I shouldn't be spilling this all out on deviantart, where everyone can see and probably tell me what I did wrong, but I didn't feel like I could post this poem without the entire story behind it as well. What was originally just a few lines, turned into a complete rant.

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:iconanimeroxxx:
Honestly, I understood this fully. I also have a person who hurt me sooo bad and asked for me to "forgive" him. I just smiled and said, "Sure" knowing that he's easy to read and he just wants forgiveness so he can hurt me again. Or because he feels pitty for me. But I just smile and when I walk away I frown and think of how "sweet" I could be just so I could hurt him as much, if not more, than he hurt me. This poem made me think of how people could be so mean, then ask for "forgiveness" the memories truly never disappear, fade maybe, but never disappear.
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LegoniusSC7 Featured By Owner Jan 9, 2015  Hobbyist Artist
😢 she's not going to forgive me is she...
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:iconcottonee7:
Cottonee7 Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2013
This is how a certain someone feels about me.
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:iconoilux:
Oilux Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2013  Student Writer
Kind of sucks huh?
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:iconcottonee7:
Cottonee7 Featured By Owner Jan 23, 2013
Yeah.
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:iconblackdragonof1989:
BlackDragonof1989 Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012
Nevermind
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:iconoilux:
Oilux Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012  Student Writer
Well alrighty then
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:iconblackdragonof1989:
BlackDragonof1989 Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012
Sorry it was my misunderstanding of my friend :icondragoninsane:
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:iconoilux:
Oilux Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012  Student Writer
Lol that's great to hear!
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:iconblackdragonof1989:
BlackDragonof1989 Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012
Hey thanks ^^
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:iconblackdragonof1989:
BlackDragonof1989 Featured By Owner Dec 17, 2012
I feel like this is how someone feels about me
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:iconoilux:
Oilux Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012  Student Writer
I think that we all have that one person that feels that way about us.
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:iconblackdragonof1989:
BlackDragonof1989 Featured By Owner Dec 18, 2012
Maybe so, and sometimes I can understand why *nods*
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:iconkrazzyfart:
krazzyfart Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
title reminds of a song by Miley Cyrus, .. "Forgiveness and Love" really love that song.....made me a better person :)
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:iconoilux:
Oilux Featured By Owner Oct 12, 2012  Student Writer
I haven't heard that song before, is it good?
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:iconkrazzyfart:
krazzyfart Featured By Owner Oct 13, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
Oh Yes!! it is great!
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Momo-chan-Phoenix Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2012
This captures the emotion to be unforgiving perfectly.
I find I have related myself to it... and in comparison, though I'm not saying the situation is at all the same as yours, has made me come to realize that I must forgive to move on and forget about this person. Thank you.
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:iconoilux:
Oilux Featured By Owner Sep 10, 2012  Student Writer
Thank you for the wonderful comment.
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:iconmomo-chan-phoenix:
Momo-chan-Phoenix Featured By Owner Sep 15, 2012
You are very welcomed~ <3
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:iconwinterleave:
WinterLeave Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I hope that some day the pain wil disappear and you'll find the strength to forgive <3
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:iconoilux:
Oilux Featured By Owner Aug 19, 2012  Student Writer
Thank you. A lot of time has passed since then, but still I can't forgive, but I know one day I will be.
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:iconwinterleave:
WinterLeave Featured By Owner Aug 20, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
you're welcome :)
Yes, one day you will forgive him <3
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:iconsilent-sarah05:
silent-sarah05 Featured By Owner Jul 12, 2012  Hobbyist Photographer
God says to bless those who curse you and forgive even if they don't deserve it.
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care623 Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
well done. i know what it feels like to be so hurt by someone that you feel you can never forgive them. just remember that if a person deserved forgiveness, they wouldn't need it.
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:iconoilux:
Oilux Featured By Owner Jun 10, 2012  Student Writer
Thank you, I will.
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:icondomosushiluver:
DomoSushiLuver Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2012
wow great job this poem is breathtaking
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:iconoilux:
Oilux Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2012  Student Writer
Thank you!
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:icondomosushiluver:
DomoSushiLuver Featured By Owner Jun 9, 2012
no prob
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:iconyuriko-chan24:
Yuriko-chan24 Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
beautiful as usual....i hope some of your stuff gets published some day...become the next Emily Dickinson or someone of the like...

and...honestly....after reading what you've put...i can understand why you did what you did...and i don't think it's wrong...then again...you're a friend of mine...so i might be being biased here, but...if anyone ever hurts you... you can come running to me and i'll shove them off the face of the earth. and i mean it. no one hurts my friends. not ever. and bitch you mess with me you got another thing coming.
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Oilux Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2012  Student Writer
Omg you really think I could be the next Emily Dickinson? :faint: I feel so honored.

Thank you! I mean he has put me through a lot, I just wish he would leave me alone. I'll be sure to come running to you though if you ever need it.
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Yuriko-chan24 Featured By Owner Jun 8, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
eventually maybe! i think you're brilliant, and you have such a wonderfully different outlook on life...you can be pessimistic and optemistic at the same time while still being able to choose one over the other if you have to and i can always feel the emotions you're going for, maybe more...it's like your heart simply leaps onto...er, i guess the screen in this case instead of paper

:iconhuggleplz::icongrin--plz: yup, i'll kick his ass. didn't take two years of taekwondo for nothing!
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:iconoilux:
Oilux Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2012  Student Writer
Awwww thank you so much! :tighthug: That means so much to me.

You took taekwondo??
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Yuriko-chan24 Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
:blush: daww

and yup! granted i lost a lot of it cause it's been so long, but hell i can fight if i have to!
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:iconoilux:
Oilux Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2012  Student Writer
I wish I knew how to do that.
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:iconyuriko-chan24:
Yuriko-chan24 Featured By Owner Jun 12, 2012  Student Traditional Artist
i think everyone knows how to fight, not everyone can fight well
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:iconoilux:
Oilux Featured By Owner Jun 20, 2012  Student Writer
That is very very true.
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Jesus-mothic-freak Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2012
well i can read this poem and tell you that i've experienced this from both sides. like i've done some stuff and asked for forgiveness and they say yes but i can tell that it's not honest.
i totally understand how you feel and i dont blame u at all for it, i mean i've experienced that side as well, but i guess, i kind of have to forgive.
i know because i've done stuff in the past but in the end was honestly apologetic, that there's a chance that the person is being honest and deep in their heart they really mean to change (... whether or not they actually do).
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Chukapix Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Really astonishing !!!! Amazing! :faint:
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:iconoilux:
Oilux Featured By Owner Jun 6, 2012  Student Writer
Thank you!
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:iconchukapix:
Chukapix Featured By Owner Jun 7, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
Np, it's really great!!! :clap:
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:iconmary-alice-hedgehog:
mary-alice-hedgehog Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2012  Hobbyist Traditional Artist
i feel the same ):
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:iconpensivepisces:
PensivePisces Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2012  Hobbyist Writer
i think its good that you expressed yourself. no one should ask for forgiveness unless they are sorry.
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NekoNinja13 Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2012
sorry i hope youre day gets(got) better
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notyouneitherme Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2012  Hobbyist Digital Artist
Yeah I would say that you probably shouldn't have forgiven him - even though you only said you did but not really did - but then again ... I am very bad to turn people who want my love and or friendship down ... so I get how you feel. Though I have never been treated so bad that I never would forgive anyone ... Okay maybe once but that's not my point.
Stand strong, live on.
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silverowl19 Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2012  Student General Artist
Thank you.
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Sikarbi Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
There's no forgiveness for me.
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HeartofaWriter Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I've been hurt like this quite recently, by someone who I thought would be friends with me throughout life. She turned out to be a pathological liar and thief. And the. Ext day she asked why I wouldn't speak to her. :rage:
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Stargliderxp13 Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
this is true my friend, I hardly forgive others for deeds that hurt me in any way, though I pretend I do just like you.

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"to punish and enslave" -Barricade
"On ze ground por favor, and stay there!"-Mirage/Dino
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Decepticons, transform and rise up! :happybounce:
Autobots, transform and role out!
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Eternal-Poet Featured By Owner Jun 5, 2012  Hobbyist General Artist
I see very much what you speak of, here.
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